So fed up with the system I just want to say fuck it to the formal education system and move to France. Maybe some more exotic country but probably France - DAMNIT

Day numero dos at home is underway. I slept in soo late (11) but I am assureing myself that it is ok until I have a reason to get up earlier. Besides if I stay up until midnight I get to actually spend time with my dad. He gets home late at like 9 so we shoot the shit, he gives me stories about his tax customers or his employees and then we finish off the night with channel surfing between Leno and Letterman ( a favorite activity that we used to do when I stayed up late in high school).

I finished my resume! I'll post it at the bottom of this. I really advise you guys to write your more professional resume. I didn't even realize how far away the things we write to get in to college are. To think I sent that to the Board of Aeons to get in, they probably thought it was "cute" that I didn't have a real resume.

(Side Thought: I am watching TLC and the Byers commercial with Daniel Ellson "Mom, Dad, I Fooounddd it" came up. THIS is why I live in Columbus)

Today's plans are getting in touch with Akita people. Also, working out- and clearing out all the shit I didn't want to put back in to my room. That translates in to me throwing it out, and then my mom going through the trash telling me I shouldn't throw it out, and it ends up in a box in the attic.

So, Sarah Meenely and I broke our facebook relationship because she got together with her boyfriend steve again. I am so tempted to send the thing to Connor but I have reservations. I mean we are dating, and I know he thinks of me as his girlfriend but we have never actually called eachother that. I am going to bite the bullet this weekend and bring it up. I don't think it is forward, and i'm just going to say a guy from Wabash started calling again and I just didn't have any interest and I realized I was ready to just focus on him (which is true, when Chad and I talk I don't feel like the va-va-vooom I used to). Ok Day is starting NOW (yes I am aware it's 1 pm but I have my day planned out until atleast 9 pm)
byyeee

Day one of my life in Ohio. I spent most of the weekend/MLK day just unpacking and recovering from the crazy weekend, so obviously it doesn't count. First order of business, Rachel Ray rocks my world. I'm watching her show right now and I really really like her. She really gives women hope, and it a lot more relateable than Oprah. Ok that's my random musing of the day.

A few differant things happening. It's so bizzare that I have a clean slate right now until Akita. I litrally can get any job I want ( atleast that is the motivation I am telling myself! )
Being at home is helping a lot already. The unknown anxiaty feeling is slowly slipping away. I know I have friends here, friends in bloomington and connor to call when I am done doing my work, but I know that I am not going to get distracted because I have to contact them. I plan to apply to Ohio State today. The deadline is Feb 1, so hoefully I can get completely admitted and then take general classes like my writing and french. I'm sending out a cute mailer to the families I am interested in baby-sitting for just letting them know I am in town. I'm going to take a bite out of this day Rawl

It's my BIRTHDAY.

So far I got up, did Yoga, Bought books with Tara, let Tara buy me coldstone b/c I was bummed out, and now I'm about to (gulp) Pack. I try to do it when my roomies are gone b/c I get really sad, and I know they are trying their best to not be sad when i'm still here but I think emotions are going to just all blow up tonight. I told them I didn't want to go out to dinner b/c they are coming with me home this weeknd and I would rather just spend quality time with just the 4 of us at the house. We are ordering in Chinese, turning off our cell phones, making cosmopolitans and watching the entire sixth season of Sex and the City. It doesn't sound that crazy but it's the only thing that sounds so appealing. Especially the girls only thing, I feel like we always have a boyfriend lurking around here. I have gotten calls from almost all the scones at some point in the day today (cough cough Laura and Cristina, get on the ball). Also I caught up with Amanda and made plans to say my goodbyes to her all day tomorrow. It's been great to hear from everyone I love. Even though I am kind of "attched" this birthday - I still think if I was an old maid and just lived with my girlfriends the rest of my life I would be content.

It's been a good year. I think i'm overall the happiest i've ever been this birthday. I know i'm in charge of how I deal with every situation, and I think thats why this year keeps getting better and better. . RECAP of SARAH ELIZABETH HARTMAN KUHMAN, 19
- Depressed I couldn't rush, had to deal with the fact that I was 100 percent responsible and that I think whipped me in to the biggest attitude makeover i've ever had
-Became really self sufficent and ok with doing my own thing after I got in a fight with 1 of my two best friends at IU
-Got Fired from my art job for oversleeping (weeehhhwww HUGE lesson)
-Emerson broke my heart (yep I said it)
-Started Becoming a lot closer with Amanda when we both found a love of the Fiji Boys, and ended up getting asked to the Fiji formal the Black Diamond
-Met Michelle the south african chick at Black Diamond, shes a life long friend that I love
-Amanda and I became political, and I ended up devoting a lot to the Hoosier campaign
-Was chosen to be on the board of Aeons, this elite board that I schmoozed my way through hard work on the campaign
- Named Director of external Affairs of the Studnet Body (wow)
- Went to Maggie's formal at Miami and brought Michelle and Amanda with me --- that was a shit show
- Met Alli Shearer, Amanda's pledge sister and immediatly fell in love and became one of my closest IU friends
-Signed a lease on a whim to live with 3 girls from my floor
-Little 500 happened, it was amazing, I lived at Fiji
- My last IU experience was my mom, dad and amanda and I eating breakfast on a saturday morning at village deli. They let me walk amanda to her car and I think we sobbed the entire way.
I have a hand cramp.... i'll finish later

BUCKEYES!!! I'm soo excited for the game! I even got Tara to wear a Shirt.

Also, I told my roomates last night. I told Mel first, then Tara and Nicci. Mel and I were emotional, but Tara and Nicci thought we were kidding. I couldn't believe that I first had to tell them "For the love of god, go look in my empty closets!". But, we all hungout last night and they are watching the game with me tonight so that will be nice. Tara and Mel are for sure coming home with me next weekend and hopefully nicci will get off work and come back with me too. This week is so surreal....

10 minutes till kick off GO BUCKS

I'm about to tell my roomates that I am moving back home. This is the WORST feeling ever. I have been delaying it all night and trying to wait for the perfect opportunity, but I don't think it's going to come anytime soon. YUCK.
i'm contemplating telling Mel first b/c shes who I have grown the closest to. Wow I just want to keep writing how much I don't want to do this, so I can precrastinate even more.

It just doesn't feel real. I was so exctied while at home and unpacking and not having to say bye to all of my OSU friends and my parents and Connor. The entire ride back my stomach was just twisting and I sobbed like half of the time. I love my friends here so much, this seriously hurts.