This day was really good- I think mainly because it was the first day in a long time that I actually woke up well rested, was able to do a REAL work out and sweat out the icky winter feeling, and of course the fact that I didn't have to work AT ALL.

I got the urge to clean and while cleaning in my room knocked over a wax warmer thing and well ended up making a much bigger mess that i'm STILL cleaning. Thing like large jar candle all melted inside. I think i'll smell like fresh linen and my room will smell like fresh linen until april or may. I'm reallllly anxious to get home, I've been packing and getting ready since saturday. I'm really worried now though b/c my mom is sick from high blood pressure stuff and I know that 2nd graders overdue for christmas and a lot of family is not going to help any. I feel guilty being here and want to be there to help.

I walked on IU campus today and had a kumbayah moment with myself. I hadn't really walked around since I shut the campus scene out of my life late in september. After spending time at the Fiji house recently all of the feelings from the other side of the list, "Why I should stay at IU", came back to me. I have hardly seen Amanda, Alli and Sarah compared to last year, ignore calls from a lot of my guy friends b/c i'll be at wabash, and don't do the things like work out at the HPER and other things I should take advantage of. But after really thinking about it, I don't have any doubt in my mind that I will ever regret not staying at IU. I was not in student mode, and for me to realize what student mode for me is - I needed to take a break for awhile and not be forced to go through the motions. Also I have learned so much about first impressions by living with my roomates. I consider these 3 some of my closest friends and I lived an entire year next door, down the hall and across the hall from all three. I dubbed Melanie as someone I would never be close with but - that is because she and I are exactly the same person. I now know she was just distant b/c she was trying to have a life seperate than Amanda in college. I needed this year and it will be a year that I know that I will always remember it when I think about taking risks, having courage, and doing the right thing for you even when people you love the most are skeptical. I have a lot to be thankful for at the end of this year. Can you believe that my life has tailspinned SO fast? 360 days ago I was practiceing my answers on what i'm studying, and why I want to rush theta. I was blonde, not at all in the mindset of going to law school, friends with melissa bruckman, had no idea what wabash college even was. ohhhh my life. I can't even keep up with myself.

So everyone left me. I was really pumped for awhile for my roomates to leave to clean the place because during finals it got gross but now i'm super lonley and want them here. So far with my freedom I accidently fell asleep while waiting for the call that my friend ty was going to pick me up. Whooops, missed that date. I ended up just sleeping the entire night and slept for almost 15 hours straight. Then Today (sunday) I worked from 11-4:30, grocery shopped for just fresh stuff and milk, and now i'm watching the office box set while sipping wine. I would try to be productive tonight but I work tomrrow at 5 am so i'm trying to just relax and make myself tierd so I can fall asleep early. My plan is that I can get all of my crafting of Christmas gifts done tomorrow afternoon (I get off at like 2) and then I don't work at all on tuesday. That is a huge chunk and hopefully i'll pre productive.

oh also, I just made the best home made ravioli evvverrrrr

also, also, I miss columbus/1650 berkshire/mom/dad/scones/igloo/emerson/my yellow room more than anything right now.

This holiday season has been very merry (as it should be). I am staying in my room tonight though because my roommates are all in that "finals week" anger that I know just to avoid. I don't want to be the jackass sitting around jolly, making home made jewelry for Christmas presents. I really am regretting that I will not see my friends from home for that long but hopefully I'll just make that 4 days congested with reuniting with all of my favorite people. It hit me today that this is the longest period of time that I've ever been without seeing Poppy, my grandpa. He is the definition of man and basically the coolest grandpa ever so I am eagerly awaiting to spend time with him.

The week after Thanksgiving was kind of long because I was getting the hang of how work changes during the holiday season. There are a lot more rude customers, a lot more merchandise, and a lot of new dumb seasonal cashiers that ask me the stupidest questions. I've learned how to pace myself at work and just laugh at the customers that are so anal and rude about the size of their glitter. I found out today that we get EVERY class free so I am going to start attending everyone that I can just I can get the basic skills down and be more knowledgeable. Almost all of my gifts are handmade with love :)

I've gotten back to my freshman year roots and attended two fraternity date things last week. I spent the weekend at Wabash with Chad Finley for his "Beta Soiree". Melanie was originally going to be there with Mike but Mike's Grandpa died on Friday so it turned out I was there just for Chad and it made it even more of a "I'm chad's girlfriend" type of thing. It's a bummer he is going abroad next semester, because we get along really well. I mean, I took him antique shopping with me on Saturday afternoon and he admittedly enjoyed it because he found sweet shot glasses.
I had a blast from the past going to the Fiji Christmas Date Party with Brice Keefer on Wednesday. One of my best friends from Freshman year, Alli Shearer, went too so we made the dates pick us up from the sorority house. All of the boys in the house were so happy to see "mama bear" was alive. I made the vow to start going there more often while I can next semester.

Last week we had major roommate bonding because Tara's boyfriend ended up being a jackass and she had to break up with him over a bunch of sneaking around he did. He was the last person I would ever guess to do this, so it was extremely shocking. This lead to us throwing a big party on Saturday to celebrate Tara's birthday and her new singledom. There weren't as many guests as we originally assumed but the people I would want to see did come. The mess was minor and I didn't have anyone here that I had to entertain, so I could just really enjoy it. Pictures from the weekend included:)